Oh before we start, I must warn the readership that this post contains real things like my views and other things that maybe classed as life, this may course offence to some twats like stuck up christen and/or Scientology fucktards but now that is out the way, lets continue and I will try to use the art of the wordsmith to reduce the amount of patois and execrate (in sense, antediluvian if you will).

As some plebeians know (in usage context of the commoner within a classless society to not to imply the implementation of a social class system) I do live next door to some rather inconsiderate, unschooled, illiterate and unaccomplished persons with musical hankerings that most people of sane persuasion have a aversion to at 1,2 and 3am.

In addition to this, I did find that ones own property (My vehicular transportation, One Rover 620i, that one may add has had, of times recent had many hours of work invested in it) has been damaged by uncouth yob of questionable worth, so not only has ones work and rest (I do work nights and being self employed, I do so from home, often getting precious little rest) been disturbed by music, uncultured and showing little in the way of talent I may add, so I am unable to enjoy this even if I was in the mood to have our house turned into a elephantine subwoofer.

With my current heath being what it is, I do feel that I would be well within my rights to go around with a rather large axe and chop them in to minuscule bits while laughing maniacally while posing in a Japanese school girl outfit but thats to Loki for me.

"I am no feeble Christ, not me
He hangs in glib delight upon his cross
Above my body
Christ forgive. FORGIVE?
I vomit for you Jesu
Shit forgive
Down now from your cross
Down now from your papal heights
From the churlish suicide, petulant child
Down from those pious heights
Royal flag bearer, goat, billy
I vomit for you
Forgive? Shit he forgives
He hangs in crucified delight
Nailed to the extent of his vision
His cross, his manhood, violence, guilt, sin
He would nail my body upon his cross
Suicide visionary, death reveller
Rake, rapist, lifefucker, Jesu
Earthmover, Christus, Gravedigger
You dug the pits of Auschwitz
The soil of Treblinka is your guilt
Your sin, Master, master of gore, enigma
Your carry the standard of our oppression
Enola is your gaiety
The bodies of Hiroshima are your delight
The nails are the only trinity
Hold them in your corpsey gracelessness
The image I have had to suffer
The cross is the virgin body of womanhood that your defile
You nail yourself to your own sin
Lamearse Jesus calls me sister
There are no words for my contempt
Every woman is a cross in his filthy theology
In his arrogant delight
He turns his back upon me in his fear
He dare not face me. Fearfucker
Share nothing you christ
Sterile, impotent, fucklove prophet of death
You are the ultimate pornography
In your cuntfear, cockfear, manfear, womanfear, unfair
Warfare, warfare, warfare, warfare, warfare,
Warfare, warfare, warfare
JESUS DIED FOR HIS OWN SINS, NOT MINE"

Crass - Reality Asylum

Today one did finally bite the bullet in regard to seeing them who one has not seen for so long.

So much has changed and for this one is so down, I'd trade experiences gained by one over the past 2 years to go back to 2005 in most ways.

While I love this time and them who I know, I feel like I am forever bleeding in some areas, highlighted today. One does however find that finding old friends anew awakens dormant feeling for them who used and tried to destroy me and them who have but faded away from my arms.

Some things you lose and some things you just give away.

All things scare me now in the light of all that could have been.

Jess

To all who watch, fav, comment and enjoy my work, forgive me my dear fans. I do hope that this will help people to understand what has happened of late. I do however vow to return in the not so distant future and hope you'll forgive my absence.

Why have you not uploaded any new works to deviantART.

Due to a barrage of work and a series of creative blockages, I have been unable to produce work that I personally class as good so till I get back on form I will no longer upload work and due to my dislike of dA of present, I fear that all new photographic works will be displayed on our companies website (due to completion soon) and all new works of literature may end up published.

Why can't I contact you via MSN, Yahoo, ICQ, dA note, etc.

Due to changes in my life, I am unable to man my IM accounts as well as emails attached to such accounts, in regard to dA, I rarely visit much at the moment. I am trying to find myself again and in doing so find that my time is taken up in other ways at present.

If you are formerly on my MSN list, you can contact me at my current address jesso-at-f5cd.com .

What happened to mkI******l.

Due to cyber stalkers and my family situation it became imposable to keep, but reassured that work originally uploaded to that account will resurface both here and in full resolution on our company website, however this takes time so it might take me some time to do this.

Blessed Be

Jessicat!

UPDATE

To all of my former investors (in Revolution Computer Company) I wish inform any investors that any losses that they incurred due to the actions of my former business partner, are in no way my responsibility and to remind them that it was them who fired me and sided with my former partner.

I wish for any slander to stop immediately and if this continues, I reserve the right to sue involved parties.

TO JO

You did not "destroy" me nor are you "better" than me and as you see I am still here so you did not "drive" me to take my own life. The only person who has been able to do any of that was Kim.